Hey God are you Listening? It's Me

[bluewinged_songbird]

So my laptop won't boot up, which is not conducive to jobhunting. Or Dreamwidth either but it's the only social media I want to talk on, so I'll endure the mobile experience.

Honestly, these few weeks have been utter crap. I just came back from the Malaysian Urban Forum and day 1 was fun because it was nice to listen to talks on things I'm interested in, instead of looking at my future prospects in dread. Day 2 is when it hit me that developers and the housing authorities didn't care for the things I cared about. Or rather they cared but had no idea what it's like to design urban spaces for young working adults with limited access to transportation and housing, much less the elderly and the disabled. Even those few organizations that cared about building people-centred spaces were also speaking from that hippy-dippy startup place that gave cool but not practical ideas. I'm so disheartened honestly. Why do I want to take up more debt to pay for a Masters in Environmental Psychology when no one gives a shit and there are no job prospects?! Maybe it was good to have that notion disabused early.

So now it's back to jobless existential crisis time. I need a hug and a bottle of vodka, gawd!

Comments

[vera_dauriac]

Good luck! *passes the vodka*

[bluewinged_songbird]

Thank you! Every bit of scrounged up luck counts. Alcohol too.

[potofsoup]

::hugs::

Oh man, well-meaning but uninformed platitudes are the worst if you're trying to enter a field.

Is there a way to get hired without getting a degree? My husband was applying to masters programs in civic engineering and environmental stuff but then instead he got a job at a small solar start-up -- basically getting paid to do the stuff and learn on the job, instead of paying $$???

[bluewinged_songbird]

I don't think even the hippy dippy places are hiring. D: It's the age-old question of dreams vs ricebowl, I've been fighting my father on getting a cert in something IT related.

But I think what hurts the most is finally meeting your idols and then discovering that a) they're not who they say they are b) You've worked hard and incurred student debt for nothing.

[opensummer]

I'm sorry things are not great right now but it's going to be ok!

[bluewinged_songbird]

Awwwww, thank you. A couple days with nothing to do but think have calmed me down a bit, and I think I have better perspective now.

[opensummer]

A little bit of time often helps!